Spontaneous miscarriage not only marks the loss of life, it also marks the loss of parental role, hopes, plans, control, and despite the inability to establish a physical connection, there is a strong intensity of mourning present. When a woman experiences a loss, she faces feelings of sadness, anger, despair, feelings of guilt, rejection of her body. Pregnancy after pregnancy with a miscarriage can therefore be full of uncertainty and unpredictability, imbued with fear and doubt. Connecting a woman with a child is therefore difficult, or it only moves boldly in the last trimester of pregnancy.
As part of the master's thesis, we have explored the experiences of connecting with a child in pregnancy after a previous miscarriage with the help of participants' reporting. The study involved seven participants who had to meet the condition of experiencing a miscarriage and a new pregnancy after it (either interviewed during pregnancy or less than three months after giving birth) in order to participate. It turned out that all miscarriages started with bleeding for no known reason and left a strong mark on all women. For all participants in the new pregnancy after the outcome of a miscarriage causes a life of uncertainty and fear. Participants have reported more intense bonding only in the last trimester, after morphological examination. Bonding had mostly been performed physically through contact with the pregnant belly, singing, reading fairy tales, singing… Two participants have reported that the bonding with the child was impossible until the last days of pregnancy, as fear of losing has been too ingrained in their bodies and they have been afraid of getting pregnant again for this very reason. Research has shown that the experience of miscarriage brought together all seven participants and their partners, all of whom state that the basis for rapprochement is a quality relationship before pregnancy.
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